I'm not making this thread looking for some kinda attention. It just that I'm feeling a lilttle lost and down at the moment, and i don't have anyone else to talk to as of right now.



Here the thing, i've been on dialysis for the last 13 years, since i was 16 years old and it has been taking a huge toll on me. It seem as i get older i get weaker and i get more depression. I've already been through 2 bouts of depression which caused me to have 2 strokes-(both almost took my life)[img]/images/smilies/frown.gif[/img]



I don't know if i wanna go through another 10 years of dialysis I'm always in and out of the hospital every 2-3 months.Going to dialysis three days a week-being hook up to a machine for 3 and a half hours, then when you get off, it feel like someone knocked the piss out of ya. I believe if i go through another bout of depression and have a 3rd stroke it will be 3rd strike you...are...out for me. [img]/images/smilies/frown.gif[/img]



Now, you may ask Why I'm telling you guys this, because i need some cheering up at the moment and this is one of the only places where i feel most at home and welcome. I love coming to this board because it full of wins and i always get a good laugh out of many of the posters on here.



So, i say let the jokes begin.[img]/images/smilies/biggrin.gif[/img]